Ever have those days waking up and this psychological funk just hits you like a ton of bricks? Yesterday seems fake and tomorrow is too real. The future and all its prospects around you begin to fester into this rather gargantuan monster of negativity that encompasses all of you. It’s uncomfortable but it’s unexplainable. You just don’t feel like you. There’s a tight mental grip that depression and drug abuse subconsciously take hold of.
Depression and drug abuse go together like peanut butter and jelly. It doesn’t matter if its problems at home, relationships at work, or even monetary issues occurring- we all experience that heaviness at various points in life. For most people, these low feelings come and go as any other normal emotion can, and off on their merry way they skip along. Then there are those who suffer from actual real live depression who become shackled to the cynicism coursing through their veins. Every inch of the person wishes they weren’t like this. It’s like the big school bully just sitting on you and preventing you from the freedom you long for. Talk about a self-induced mental wedgie.
Clinical depression as it’s deemed- really is mental disability with extreme discomfort for the individual and the loved ones in his/her immediate circle.
Depression and drug abuse are extremely common among people who have addictive personalities. Ironically enough, alcohol itself is a depressant and will often time intensify the negative feelings swarming the hive in between our ears. If that doesn’t do it, our alcoholic thinking kind of tells us to drown out the low feelings with whatever chemicals can be thrown our way. It’s all about feeling too much and trying to feel less- or so we tell ourselves.
Depression and drug abuse will drag us through an all time new low, but blue is a color that was meant for the sky. Why is it that we constantly justify everything negative that this dreaded disease has brought into our lives? As addicts and alcoholics, we look to the substance to fill this hole inside of us because something is missing. Strangely enough, all the drug abuse has done is made us feel emptier than before. That is the definition of irony and insanity rolled up into one sick joke.
The sickness of alcoholic thinking is it wants us to remember all the wonderful highs and drunken nights that we claim to have had fun in. The sick part is that mentally, depression and drug abuse want us to forget about all the nights we cried ourselves to sleep. Clinical depression will literally squeeze you like a boa constrictor that you can’t shake off. It will help you to forget all the days that an empty bottle and a dull rusty syringe were your best friends.
Eventually, depression and drug abuse will show us a path where death is the end product to ending this “uncomfortable madness.” We must clip this wick and prevent the candle from burning out too early.
Find Your Tail Eeyore
Depression and drug abuse can affect all addicts and alcoholics differently. It’s estimated that roughly 10% of addicts and alcoholics deal with the mental disorder of clinical depression coupled with their alcoholism- yet this is a sandwich that must be eaten in separate pieces. Those dealing with this power couple of mental disorders are usually
- Middle-aged adults between the ages of 45 and 64
- African Americans and Hispanics
- People who are unable to work or who are chronically unemployed
- People who lack private medical insurance or public health benefits
Recognizing and admitting one’s addictive tendencies is a bit of a different game than just battling clinical depression. The two together will powerhouse you- but it’s about perseverance and seeing the greater good thru the fog.
To admit one is an addict or alcoholic is the easy part. To accept it and realize there is no other direction this thing can take you- that is where the revelations begin. Sometimes this overwhelming feeling of rock bottom will need to hit. This, for myself and many, is what it takes to commit to sobriety and attacking clinical depression. It is also what it takes to throw many over the edge and into a casket.
Remember: Love Yourself
It’s unfortunate how such thinking just takes over like it does, and for some, it goes on for years and years and years. As mentioned previously, some addicts and alcoholics never find a solution to the problem and end up enduring the torment that depression and drug abuse bring up until that last breath. To admit out loud that you have run all other options into the ground and have accepted your desperation may be what it takes to make some final changes.
There are different solutions to each problem and all battling depression and drug abuse are not doomed to wander the earth in an uncomfortable stupor.
Regular psychiatric visits or attending Alcoholics or Narcotics Anonymous meetings can be a godsend for those who truly want to keep moving forward. Our chemical usage will only make us more depressed, and depression will make us want to use. Irony at its finest. When that heavy negative hold comes over you- it’s imperative to remember that nothing is permanent in life except for death. Call yourself out and do everything in your power to feel like the miracle of life that you actually are. Do not roll your eyes- you are the greatest miracle in the world if you want to be.
End of the Line
Life likes to sneak up on people but depression and drug abuse will grab you up by the ankles and flip your whole world upside down. It gets old quick- but there are alternatives to being chemically dependent. If you or a loved one is struggling with chemical dependency and are ready for help, please call 1-888-481-1993 or visit www.coastaldetox.com. We are ready to give you any suggestions possible and set you or your loved one on a path that we can all be proud of.